eight months with Ry!

i'm really loving;
You
Old bikes
Snow
Polaroid pictures
Thigh high socks with dresses
Fake nails
Ripped jeans and cropped tops
Peroxide blonde
Huge rings
Winter boots
Alcohol
Adele Cotz
Nose piercings
Love

Shelley Mulshine

Shes so thin, so beautiful. I love her.
Thinspo.

tried to dye my hair..
didn't work ..
now it's like strawberry blonde.
i don't like it

dear jo

this girl is amazing and i love her to bits
marshmead term with you i cant wait jo
love dell x

I got a little stretcher today :)
Its only little but I love it..
I wasn't thinking of getting one but thanks to ryan I do.
ha good one babe .
i love unexpected things (:

i want this hair cause its kinda freaking georgous.

things i want to do before the end of the holidays:

- get a hair straighter
- get some kind of pet
- nose piercing
- save money for a TV
- make a cookie monster cupcake (down below)
- dye my hair black, layer it and side fringe
- get a fucking job
- read the rest of my book
- clean out my room
- finish painting my room
- put the blinds up
- do something really nice for ryan
- take all of the photos I need to for photography..

is it not the coolest thing you have ever seen?

SO.
Me and Ryan are almost 6 months :)
I never thought that I could hold something up that long.
So I'm fairly proud hehe.
Couldn't love him more, i wanna wake up next to him..
although I would pretty much do anything to see him on my birthday :(
At the moment, I'm not sure I want girlfriends anymore..
I think I'll go back to having guy best friends
...Girls are too confusing.
So.. from now on.

A new start.

What do I do for my birthday?
There isn't really anything I can do.
It'll probs be up there with the worst birthdays I've ever had.
It's going to suck.
What else pisses me off is that even though i'm going away..
I cant even see my best friend .
Massive SadFace

... and theres a sticker on my nose

he says
the feelings are slowly dying...

is this drifting away like past friendships.
i thought you were my everything.
now i realise, that maybe you never cared?
well it's hard to tell.
i don't know what to do because i still love you.
yet i don't think you do.
but i can see whats happening, there's only one thing
helping me hold on.
i wish you were around all the time.
being away from you sucks.
so much.
I'll say nobody is understanding.
fuck.
somebody help me

make my decision for me.

grrr. I'm the most indecisive person in the world !

iwantdarkerhair.





its sad when the people you know become the people you knew,
when you can walk straight past someone,
like they were never a big part of your life,
how you used to be able to talk for hours, but now you can't even look at them.
its sad how it changes so quickly..

Come on, and show them your love,
Rip out the wings of a butterfly.
For your soul, my love

what would life be like being really pretty?

She loved life and it loved her right back.
She listened to heart above other voices.
She pursued big dreams in of small realities.
She saw every ending as a new beginning.
She discovered her real measurements had nothing to do with numbers or statistics.
She was kind loving and patient with herself.
She woke up one day and threw away her excuses.
She realized she was missing a great deal by being sensible.
She turned her cant’s into cans, and her dreams into plans.
She ignored people who said I couldn’t be done.
She had a way of obstacles into opportunities.
She went out on a limb, had it break behind her, and discovered she could fly.
She discovered she was the one she’d been looking for.
She added so much beauty into being human.
She walked in when everybody else walked out.
She had this way of brightening the day.
She made the whole world feel like home.
She decided to enjoy more and endure less.
She started living the life she said she imagined.
She colored her thoughts with only the brightest hues.
She was an artist and life was her canvas.
She ran ahead where there were no paths.
She crossed borders recklessly, refusing to recognize limits. Saying bonjour and buon giouno as thought she owned both France and Italy and the day itself.
She held her head high and looked the world straight in the eye.
She not only saw a light at the end of the tunnel, she became that light for others.
She designed the life she loved.
She took a leap and built her wings on the way down
She said Good-Bye to unhealthy relationships.

She remained true to herself.

so many stupid mistakes,
but no regrets because i've learnt..
learnt that every single thing makes me who i am,
what i do and how i do it, who im friends with.
some things in the past make me sad and i wish i didnt do them,
but then i realise that ill never do them again because ive been though it
i wish i was 8 again when everything was simple
and i only worried about which paddle pop flavour i wanted after school
the only way i would get hurt was falling over and scatching my leg
they were the good days,
no bitches,
no smokes,
no drinks,
no boys.
you didnt have to mask your emotions.
no fake smiles and no scars to hide

http://www.formspring.me/jojojellyfish

i never realised how fucked up the world was

you were taken from me. i miss you.

29/11/09
Ryan Bennett :)
best boyfriend;
4 months x
I couldn't love him more hes such a fucking babe.
Over 2 years we have been though so much .
There is nobody else i could wish to be with but him
Hes amazing in every way,
Makes me smile even if i'm angry with him
Unbelievably hot
Shit singing voice [just kidding, i love it]
The distance doesn't stop me from seeing him
Because hes worth sneaking out and then traveling 2 hours,
The late night calls,
And the early mornings
I honestly don't know what i would do without him
He's such a huge part of my life now
He's somebody that i'm never embarrassed around,
No matter what i'm wearing or how stupid i make myself look.
I never want to let go of something so good.

Ryon, your the best thing that's happened to me i love you so much babe

16/10/09
FYGJAM :D

parents aren't people you choose..

unfortunately,

i think its completely unfair how they can just demand how you live.

especially if they are as bad as you.

its my body ill do what i want with it.

ill wear what i want.

ill smoke if i want.

ill take a day off if i want.

ill drink if i want.

ill put on as much make up as i want.

its my money ill spend it on whatever i like..

they cant tell me what to do anymore, I'm old enough.

Ive been though enough to know when to stop.

all i want is to be with my friends and my boyfriend,

stop everything and just chill.

i'm an individual.. i don't like to be anybody else

i'm not trying to grow up to be like them.

my 'rents don't understand that,

i don't care what people say behind my back,

and you probs don't ether.

i've put up with it long enough not to care.

the words do not hurt me. not anymore.

- the more you tell me off for something the more i want to do it. i'm that kind of person. because i will make my own choices.

one mind in two bodies,
my best friend forever :]


Stephanie Andrianakis .

we ignore those who adore us. adore
those who ignore us. love those who
hurt us, and hurt those who love us.